By Isaac George
April 14th, 2013
Since Easter weekend I have had an unexpected interest in investigating the sources and manifestations of one of the most debilitating of all human experiences - shame. All such queries usually start for me when I spot some news article online, or catch some behavior in another human being. However, this time the trigger was a book I was impelled to pick up and reread. The book in question is not important at the moment, but I will list the title and author’s name at the end of this blog. It was the power of how it agitated me to look deeply inside of myself which was quite amazing and cathartic.
There are many themes or ‘a-ha’s!’ cropping up within and around me these days, like the facts around heart-based awareness, and how a reawakened focus within the heart can reconnect us deeply into the Earth Consciousness and our Soul awareness, and through that portal we can access any point in ourselves and Creation. As the author Niamh Clune stated in her book ‘The Coming of the Feminine Christ’, “Only the awakened heart can avert the apocalypse.”
My personal revelations on this issue is the quality of personal courage (heart), and how it seems that most modern Western men are seemingly far removed from their warrior aspect. This results in an epidemic increase in the opposite quality – unquestioning compliance with external authorities or structures. When I mean ‘warrior’, I am not referring to soldiers or mercenaries. I am instead referring to an aspect of the Divine Masculine, which possesses the attributes of one who courageously confronts injustice. Part of this quality is includes the roles of protector and sustainer, as well as standing deeply within one’s own integrity in order to be fully responsible and responsive. With all the emphasis on the return of the Divine Feminine, it is becoming increasingly important to recognize that a balance must be struck between the two genders as our species and the planet transition out of the old order, an order that survives through the use of shame, guilt and worse to maintain power.
For there to be an authentic return to innocence, men will have to reclaim their true maleness, and embrace courage with compassion, strength with sensitivity, and protectiveness that doesn’t smother the feminine…but exalts it. Action combined with vision and heart can avert the apocalypse. Speaking truth to power that has been corrupted will not come from a monkish or emasculated consciousness. As Osho wrote in “Courage: The Joy of Living Dangerously” we may be the last generations of humanity that is able to rebel. The symbols of covert oppression are everywhere. Take the simple necktie for instance, that symbol of the business world that has become the almost universally identified with the corporate uniform. This simple piece of cloth is a symbol of slavery, or subjugation that has its origins in ancient times when conquering armies led captives back to their homelands. The iron or wood collar was the unmistakable brand of the slave, and was usually found at the end of a length of rope or chain. The shame of slavery, especially if the captive was a warrior, was a powerful and oppressive tool to keep the larger populations in line. The necktie simply says “we own you…don’t step out of line.”
The temptation of compliance is to relinquish self-autonomy, while being hypnotized into believing that you still have free choice. When you comply, you allow others to decide for you, to be responsible for your choices and experience. This is a conditioned pattern within the human psyche, and has lead to all manner of cruelty, violence, coercion, lack of empathy and compassion, and pure indifference to the suffering of others. Courage never looks for the easy way out of something. Compliance always ends up in the slippery slope to oblivion. “I was only following orders” has become the historical excuse for untold numbers of murders, massacres and injustice.
However, compliance is only one of the possible behaviors that arise from the deeper disease, which is shame. When we feel shame, it is one of the lowest emotional and vibratory states we can know while in human embodiment. Shame can be self-generated and self-directed, or arrive from outside of ourselves via parents, teachers, friends, political or military authorities. At the top of the pyramid is the strongest source of shame, which originates from religions. However, religion only relates the possible causes for shame, and then violently reinforces it. “You were born into sin!” they crow, and with each repetition the nails are driven deeper into the hands and feet of the faithful.
Upon closer examination, each religion or ordered faith has its own version of the source of this condition, the reason we all need to blush and then grovel in the dirt. This sets up a process that is only to simple to spot in the known history of our species. If you do not conform, you will be cast out, exiled, or made to feel as if you have no value and don’t even deserve to exist. The pain of this and its power to break the human heart is incalculable, and it was designed to be so.
I don’t feel that shame is a part of our natural persona. Guilt is it’s sister, despair and despondence it’s cousins. Shame runs through so much of the human personality disorder that it is difficult to detect most of the time. The Book of Genesis in the Old Testament of the Christian Bible (which is also in the Jewish Talmud) may offer some clues. I haven’t read the opening verses of The Koran to see if it has parallels to these books, but as Islam is also a descendent of the Abrahamic monotheism, I’d be surprised if it didn’t. I won’t reproduce the full text from Genesis, Chapter 3, but you can view it here.
Genesis, Chapter 3, verse 8:
Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. 9 But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?”
10. He answered, “I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.”
11. And he said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?”
12. The man said, “The woman you put here with me—she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it.”
13. Then the Lord God said to the woman, “What is this you have done?”
The woman said, “The serpent deceived me, and I ate.”
14. So the Lord God said to the serpent, “Because you have done this, “Cursed are you above all livestock and all wild animals! You will crawl on your belly and you will eat dust all the days of your life.”
In their book “Worldbridger”, Juliet and Jiva Carter describe the ‘Lord’ in this dialog as a genetic manipulator of alien origin, not the Source of Infinite Love and Grace that created us or the Earth. They postulate that since almost 97% of our genetic code is dormant it must have been altered or spliced at some distant point in our past that we’ve forgotten…or was it deliberately hidden? This take on the causes of shame goes a long way to explain the neurotic and schizophrenic tendencies in the human psyche. Our genetic software may be comprised by an alien code that is rooted in fear, survival, domination and enslavement of others. The best strategy in this case appears to be “give the slave race a complex surrounding its origins, and make the estrangement from it’s Divine Parentage seem to be real.” The curse at the end of Verse 14 is especially designed to evoke shame and guilt. After thousands of years of repetition and reinforcement, we have come to accept this insanity of a dual state of being as normal! The genius of it is, we have also swallowed the lie, cleverly implied in religious interpretation, that our identity as sexual beings is what caused the Lord’s wrath. This behavior is not representative of a loving Creator, but the ranting of a jealous and imperious overlord. It is now a well-recognised scientific fact that there is at least 6% of the human population that is missing a part of their genetic code that makes it possible to feel empathy. Could this be a clue to our genetic and behavioral distortion?
Other studies seem to indicate that of this 6%, most tend to gravitate towards attaining positions of power and authority in ruthless and subversive ways, while projecting an outward persona of normal, rational human behavior. This may be the face of the pyschopath that is ensconced in the 1% who are in running the planet. By relating this information I am not implying that everyone in positions of power in politics, business or religion are psychopaths. However, all one has to do is to observe the fruits of their actions when compared to their words and projected image to understand who is who. Since this branch of neuroscience is in its infancy, I would not necessarily preach it as gospel just yet.
[Sources: http://www.sott.net/article/246086-Is-the-Root-of-Evil-the-Psychopathic-Mind and http://human-nature.com/nibbs/01/psychopathy.html]
Shame, and the conformity and false humility that it engenders, may be one of the most important issues that we will have to deal with. Some might argue that shame is a necessary check that informs us when we have committed an offense against another. When we realize that we have done something that has harmed someone else, and we have even an ounce of empathy, we know that our words or actions have caused hurt or misunderstanding. In the movie “K-PAX” starring Kevin Spacey, the main character Prot said, “everyone in the Universe knows the difference between right and wrong.”
What is implied here is that we all know when we’ve crossed the line, and our internal nature informs us that we need to correct ourselves and utilize forgiveness as a tool to dissolve wounds between us and others. Regret for one’s unkind actions can open the heart and begin the healing process. When there is no healing process, or misunderstandings healed, then shame can turn into melancholy, rapidly followed by self-loathing and, in extreme cases, self-destruction. Sometimes people who have had terrible injustices happen to them, like rape or imprisonment and torture for their ethnicity, religion, gender, or political beliefs, can feel that somehow there must be something basically wrong with them to have had such experiences. Too often suicide seems to be the only way out of the pain of shame.
Recently, some societies have resorted to publicly naming and shaming individuals, like child molesters, hoping that this will correct unacceptable behaviors. Statistically, it does nothing to discourage other predators, and all that is accomplished is that a perpetrator is now turned into another victim, usually for the second time in their life. This is shame used as a weapon, with ‘good’ people standing in as the ultimate judge, jury and executioner. The person who was violated and also the person who committed the violation can only be healed through love, not be driving the traumas of both deeper into their psyches.
When a computer is infected with a virus, we employ a specialist or install a specially-designed program that hunts down and quarantines the troublesome bug, and then delete it later. When a human body contracts a virus, we ride it out while attempting to make our biology an inhospitable environment for the virus to exist in. We can eat chicken soup, or take vitamin C and other folk or traditional remedies to combat the invader that makes us feel so rotten. What do you do to remove a psychic and subconscious virus? Sometimes, the diagnosis is tricky, but the solutions can sometimes be quite simple. In the case of shame, however, it takes a bit more than what is typically offered through psychological methods, or with energy healing.
The realm of quantum mechanics can go quite deeply into how things work with consciousness and matter, but so far has been unable to explain the why of how it all works. Since there is a unified field, and since DNA is the common denominator within our biological makeup, then there very well may be a ‘virtual’ DNA as well, that exists in our subtle bodies and transcends any genetic damage done either through mutations from natural causes, or from deliberate manipulation. Accessing and reactivating our multidimensional codes may simply be down to the right combination of light, geometry and sound. The increasing interest in sound healing, especially non-specific forms like improvisational music created through toning and the use of crystal or metal singing bowls, can invoke specific resonances that help us remember our true natures beyond language. Music is a bridge between the Cosmos and the Earth, and the shamans have known it for millennia. Likewise there is a growing interest in sacred geometry, both as an art form and also as a map of creation and consciousness. Grounding into the Earth is also a route to re-orienting our biological electro-magnetic resonance.
The shame virus can be temporarily negated through the power of deliberate language. Affirmations consciously directed are quite powerful in a variety of situations. It is important to recognize that the power of the spoken word also may awaken the subconscious conditioned pattern of ‘not good enough’. Simply saying ‘I deserve this or that…’ may evoke a counter-response of through the ‘voice in my head’ of “No, you don’t.” This can set up an inner conflict that has no clear winner. Affirmations alone are usually not very effective in the long run.
Here are a few suggestions to identify, reduce, and in some cases eliminate, the ‘shame virus’ -
This is a very broad topic with many paths and systems. Shamanic traditions are much stronger in this regard, and perhaps explains the increasing interest in plant pharmacology and indigenous ceremonial methods to release false personas, embrace and integrate shadow aspects, and recall projections of the psyche, otherwise known as ‘soul retrieval.’ One excellent book on the subject is “Embrace of the Daimon” by Sandra Lee Dennis.
I’ve just begun to explore this as a method for getting in touch with those parts of ourselves that we consider to be unacceptable, and how and why we judge those parts so. Try thinking back to when someone said ‘shame on you’ for touching yourself (and enjoying it), or for doing what you wanted to do with your life, rather than pleasing someone else. If you decide to dump the shame stigma you’ve ‘eaten’ and made a part of yourself, then you might feel pretty angry. This requires creative approaches, but punching a pillow while screaming, or using a plastic baseball bat on a dead tree stump might just be your cup of tea. Gestalt therapy and primal screaming might be something to explore. Drumming circles?
Dancing is one way to move and express trapped energy. Explore experimental dance styles, like 5 Rhythms Dance by Gabriele Roth.
Loads of choices here. Deep breathing will usually bring up many repressed feelings. Choose from Holotropic, Shamanic, or yogic techniques like the Cobra or Fire Breath. Please do these with proper supervision and support.
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One thing that I strongly recommend is to drop all perceptions of the experience of shame, or any other negative emotional state, as being part of another body or psychic state, thereby placing it outside of yourself. Even though shame is a form of false humility, and is by its very nature an illusion that is incompatible with your true and original innocence, it is not something you are carting around like a piece of luggage that you are trying to get rid of. In order to take full responsibility for your being, and your experience, it will be more helpful to abandon the notions of separateness and cultivate wholeness in yourself. Cultivating sovereignty is an on-going process and discipline, not a switch that the Universe flips on or off for you. Allowing yourself to take risks with the full knowledge that you will also make mistakes removes a tremendous amount of self-induced pressure on you to be perfect so that you can avoid the experience of shame.
Which brings this sharing to the ultimate shame bubble…the programmed belief in almost all human beings that we wouldn’t be here, would not be ‘trapped’ in matter and physicality, if we had only behaved right and not upset God, Creator, or whomever. In spite of all the spiritual books and workshops that illumine us to the possibility that Source Consciousness is benevolent and has created infinite beings out of Itself in order to experience Itself, the power of the old lie to occasionally set us back into the old fears and subconscious language of ‘just not good enough’, or ‘there isn’t enough…love, light, abundance, or Life ‘ is still there in the human condition. We no longer have to kneel in shame any longer. We are children of the Benevolent Heart of Creation, and innocence is our natural state of consciousness. Love is who you are. There is only one Love, one Truth, and it is your Love, your Truth.
When you extend your love, your truth to others, and employ forgiveness and understanding, their shame is converted into healing, and even the blind will be able to see again, and the lame will rise up and walk.
When we stand up from the impulse of love and take action on the behalf of a better world, we truly announce who we are without shame. We return to our authenticity, and we are sane again.
“The brave may not live forever, but the cautious don’t live at all.” – Courtney Allison Moulton
Unknown falls, near Blue Ridge Parkway, Asheville, N.C.
by Isaac George
I’m just back from a visit to America between October 5th and the 14th. I was in Asheville, North Carolina for the first time, and it is one gorgeous place. Over the past six years, a few friends of mine have moved there from various parts of the U.S., and I was able to see some folks I haven’t seen since 2004, or earlier. I even got to meet some of the people that have been clients or on this newsletter’s mailing list for the very first time.
Asheville and the surrounding area is stunning, especially in autumn as the leaves are changing color. The smell and crunch of leaves underfoot while walking in the woods is one of my favorite ways to connect with Nature. The longer I was there, the more it felt like the area where I spent my childhood, in eastern Pennsylvania. Toward the end of my stay, I had some extraordinary waking visions occur, and since I’ve been back here in Ireland, they still are occurring. They are like memories, but deeper and richer, and full of poignancy.
The visions are from my childhood, but viewed from the perspective of my adulthood. In them, I see my younger self involved in little memories of simple things. In one of them I was learning how to print the alphabet on a lined sheet of yellow paper. First in upper case, then lower, and I was being so neat and meticulous, and trying to stay between the lines. Then, I looked at my finished page of homework, and felt such a sense of wonder and accomplishment. Meanwhile, my adult self found this to be incredibly touching and profound. It wasn’t pride…it was self-compassion. In another episode, I remembered being fascinated with a certain type of old-fashioned Christmas lights. They were bigger than the fairy lights we are familiar with today, but smaller than the big outdoor bulbs. These were funny…when you switched them on, and they warmed up after a little while, and then bubbles would start to rise from the base to the top of the light. They must have been filled with a special liquid and a bit of air, and they just mesmerized me…all the colored bubbles rising endlessly in the glow of different colors. Once again, my heart opened and the tears came easily. What did these waking visions mean, I wondered.
For one, I feel that this may be part of the Saturn in Scorpio effect I mentioned in the Cosmic Weather Report. But at a deeper level, I strongly sense that it is my Soul witnessing my life experience and growth to this point in my life, and the sense of love and compassion for this life I have and have lived so far is immense. As I write this, I sense a greater presence, a vast loving awareness in back of the Witness, and this presence, this divine parent of all things is the source of that compassion, that joy in the simplest of experiences. It is like having a life review, but not having to die to receive the gift of it. My system is being restored, my original and immortal Self. This is what is happening, for all of us who are choosing to enter into the unknown. This is what is happening to our home world, and the Solar System…system restore. We are not alone. We are not orphaned. We are all of it, and this loving Witness is the Source of it, and the small child, watching the bubbles in a small light on Christmas eve.
We have invented so many labels and concepts for God. Father, mother, protector, as well as it being an intelligence so beyond our mind’s comprehension, that it seems impossible to have a personal relationship with it. I know now the purely metaphysical or intellectual constructs can never touch the face of the Divine, never know that compassion I glimpsed and felt in those precious few moments. Strangely, these visions happened while I was doing the most mundane tasks…washing the dinner dishes, or taking out the trash. Then, something shifted…and I time –traveled through my heart into other places that nothing can touch…deep in the Core of me. The restoration is happening…the original ‘system’ or blueprint of Creation is coming to pass. It cannot analyzed, or bargained with, or understood with the mortal mind. It is asking us to surrender just one thing…our control. We cannot receive the big gift until we make enough room in ourselves. I know that true humility is powerful, complete, and compassionate.
This morning I find my heart breaking when my awareness takes in the collective journey and experience of humanity. Compassion is something we remember always being through adversity. All these souls, these amazing fractals of God/Goddess incarnate on this incredible planet, each with a memory as rich and varied as my own...gives me pause to reflect and sit in the immensity of it.
As I am aware now of all those who are hungry, who are ill or homeless or alone, I too am hungry and homeless and alone. I have been there, in other existences, in other times. I am also aware that this suffering was never fully intended by Source as a way of becoming aware, but being that Source allows everything (which is what love without conditions is) then all experience must be that which will complete us, exalt us. I am eager to see the new film “Cloud Atlas”, for it is a reminder of the amazing journeys the we, and Spirit through us, is on. A quote from the film: “Our lives are not our own. We are bound to others, past and present. And by each crime, and every kindness, we birth our future.” I have had that feeling many times in this lifetime…my life is not my own. It is shared through the invisible web of many meetings and many partings.
We are an immortal race, designed to live forever in these forms we currently have, each one an expression of our eternal nature. For me, this is the truest understanding of the story of Christ’s resurrection, that the material can be elevated to the immaterial. This is only part of the non-allegorical nature of the demonstration of one man becoming the embodiment of the totality of Love. It is also about not forgetting a single being that is still slumbering or suffering in the illusion of separateness. Our kindnesses must include those who appear to have lost their way temporarily, forgetting the glory of their true selves, and each remembrance of when we were in their circumstances will open our own way to the ending of our own suffering and pain. The crises facing the human race today is a spiritual one. It cannot be solved through policies and politics, bailouts and austerity. The time is coming to demonstrate Spirit’s way…with compassion, kindness, fierce love and surrender. More mind and more techniques are not the answer, and never have been. Time for us to get out of our way.
Into the unknown I go…we go. What can I trust? Only my heart, and my Source. I will let go of knowledge and embrace wisdom. I will make many more mistakes. I will grow out of them.
Trust in something real. Find it in yourself. Find it in others and the real, Divine matrix called this Earth.
Remember…you will find the real in the smallest and simplest thing imaginable. May it unlock your heart like a key opens a door.
“Domine dirige nos” (Lord, lead us)
Blessings, on your journey.
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