11th November, 2015
Well, it’s 11:11. This date is etched in my memory for many reasons.
By November 1994 the spontaneous kundalini awakening I had been experiencing since January was finally calming down enough that I could start socializing a bit. I ran into an old friend who invited me to the first channelling event I had ever been too. Some ex-investment banker named Loren was channelling an entity named Jabbar. I was clueless. The night of November 10th, 1994 I was in the audience. The channelling began, and this big hulk of a man seemingly turned into a shuffling character that reminded me of a Chinese Shaolin monk. Speaking in an odd accent and time signature, he addressed that packed meeting room about “ascension” symptoms, like seeing triple digit numbers on clocks and license plates of cars…seeing 4:44, 5:55, 1:11, and especially, 11:11. He talked about it being 11:11 the next day. As I sat there transfixed, I realized that my cheeks were wet with tears. I’d been having these experiences for 11 months now, and here was a roomful of 50 people all going through the same thing? I didn’t know what to think or say.
Now I am going to fast forward to 1998. I’d moved to Sedona, Arizona the previous March, and without wanting it to happen, and in fact resisting it every step of the way, I began channelling a being named Archangel Ariel. My first public event was on November 11th, 1998. I sat among another 50 or so people and I don’t recall much of anything that happened. It do remember it was recorded, and people afterwards were wowed and grateful. What followed on from that was six years of road travel to facilitate private sessions, group presentations and workshops, and also having my newsletter -based channelled messages published in New Age publications worldwide.
My long-running tour pretty much culminated during the week of November 11th, 2003 on the Big Island of Hawaii. For two consecutive years I had been invited to Kailua-Kona to co-facilitate Dolphin Swim Seminars with Joan Ocean. These were magical times for me, and very powerful too. The Harmonic Concordance was happening on November 8th, 2003, and I was slated to do a public channelled event at the Royal Kona Resort on the night of 11:11. Another magical night, made more so by that fact I met the woman that evening I would marry the following September…in Scotland!
The time signature of 11:11 also figures prominently in another year around November 10th-11th, 2013. I was attending a conference in London that weekend about lucid dreaming, out of body experiences and shamanic practices. The “moment” of significance was the keynote talk by Tim Freke on the evening of November 10th, and a flurry of correspondences with a dear friend that happened the next day – November 11th. It was the start of many huge changes that would proceed from that weekend to the present time.
Today is also a New Moon in Scorpio, at 19 degrees of Scorpio at 5:47pm GMT. The Sabian Symbol for this is 20 Scorpio, which has current significance for me, as I’m about to spill the beans about a major change in my work. The Symbol is:
“A Woman Drawing Aside Two Dark Curtains That Closed The Entrance To A Sacred Pathway”
(from The Sabian Symbols by Lynda Hill)
So, what this is saying to me is so timely, I can hardly believe it. For about four years now I have been putting myself out there as an astrologer, a soul-based or evolutionary astrologer to be exact. I’ve always been into astrology, and it was a major part of my healing journey in the wake of my spiritual emergence/Kundalini awakening 21 years ago. I enjoy it immensely, and felt that it would be a natural replacement part for my old channelling/counselling function, so I could use my intuitive abilities in a different context. However, just recently it came to my attention that; 1) being an astrologer wasn’t financially supporting me, 2) there are many more people who are out there doing astrology for a living than there were five years ago…the market is a bit saturated, and 3) it is NOT, professionally speaking, my first love. It does utilize all my natural listening, counselling, intuitive and psychological skills, but something’s been missing. The past two weeks, the missing components have been returning.
I don’t intend to go into giving you an entirely new CV right here, but I have come to realize something very important. I have been hiding out…been keeping certain parts of who I am in the shadows all these years. With all the talk of showing up as authentically as possible, I am now repatriating some of the biggest gifts, skills and genius that I’ve always had right there, just where I could tap into them if I needed them, then conveniently put them out of sight again. My first love is Love itself. What I know goes with that is my intense desire and passion to help others break free…to live from authentic passion…and yes, with Desire.
My Kundalini experience was multi-fold. It was triggered by some astrological transits, I know that, but the ignition point was love. Love of the Divine Feminine and Nature, and it was spiritual, cosmic, intimate, sexual, emotional, and very transformational. It reminded me of the “I” within, and has taken me back to Nature and the knowing that this planet is a living Entity. My First Love includes relating, relationships, communication, communing, feeling our feelings fully, sacred intimacy with safety and boundaries, the merging of the senses, Spirit and Self, to assist others to live in the way that is from their truest and greatest vision of Who They Are. And, it’s about returning to our nature, and to Nature. This is the core of all our healing work.
This may all be sounding and looking like a hodgepodge at the moment, but it will get more concise as I work with it. This past week has been some of the most profound reconnections to inner guidance that I’ve had in ages. I’m receiving visions and direction on how to revise my work, and how I want to share it. It is a work in progress, but it is going very fast. Thanks for you for your patience, as this is just writing itself at the moment.
So, the website is undergoing changes already. I’m going to get out in front of people more. I was going to teach an online introduction to astrology course, and although I love to teach, this subject is so broad, so deep and complicated, that I am feeling to let it go in favor or a series of webinars and podcasts on key subjects (which I love and know inside and out) that I know you will be most interested in. Then I will begin crafting courses with practical applications that yield real results! I will continue to use my astrological skills in the context of coaching, mentoring and some group work and webinars. It is relevant, but I see that there are many other very important ways in which I can create a greater impact and love what I do more, and not (hopefully) have to strive to make a living to express my unique Genius. If I can help a few of you do that too, then it’s all worth it.
Look for more in the next few blogs…I’m going to be enjoying seeing what happens next. Whatever happens, it will be done from the heart.
Have a blessed 11:11, wherever you are. I love you.